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Song No. 1 - At Least I’d Like To Think
Posted: Saturday, October 2, 2010 by AdamLockwood in Labels: 24 SongsOkay, so here is song #1 . . . and I have to admit, I might have gone a bit overboard. I had this song in the works before I started the project, so I decided to go ahead and make a decent demo for it. Have a listen . . .
At Least I'd Like To Think by AdamLockwood
Often times when I am writing a song I won’t necessarily realize the depth of possible interpretations and how I relate to it personally. It is a pouring out of emotion onto the page that has a life of its own. It lives, it breathes and I wrestle with it until it becomes a part of me. For some songs, I might not even connect with the meaning for a couple of years.
This one was different. As I said before, I had been working on this song before I decided to start the blog, so it was naturally a good place to begin. I had the first verse written for some time, but had trouble coming up with a chorus. I mulled it over for what seemed like forever, but it wasn’t until I saw several people in my life going through a similar circumstance (one that deeply shaped my own life) that I connected the meaning and emotion of the song. It became quite real to me; the song was about divorce.
Disclaimers
- I am married and I love my wife very, very much! She is the world to me, and we will always strive to live out our vows to one another. I have no doubt that we will live a long, joyful life together.
- I grew up the product of a broken marriage; however, I am in no way bitter. I love both of my parents very much and understand that sometimes God uses difficult situations in people’s lives to His purposes and to their benefit.
There has been a lot of divorce within my circle of friends and family, especially lately. It truly makes my heart hurt to see people’s marriages end painfully. I hope this song imparts my empathy to those who have or are going through a divorce, and also to someone like me -- whose parents have gone through such a difficult situation.
I fear that this song could appear one-sided and possibly even judgemental. But, I think we all play both roles at some point in time -- whether we are running after someone or are the one running away.
I also feel like it is important to share the lyrics to this song, so here they are:
At Least I’d Like To Think
It’s all well and good
‘til we start taking sides
When this bridge burns
I hope your on mine
‘Cause I can barely breathe
Without you next to me
The water fills my lungs
As we drift out to sea
Either way you turn, you’re turning away
From everything you love, and mistakes you made
And I know you know
That always means forever,
And someday you’ll come running back to me
At least I’d like to think
I can feel the weight
Of words you said to me
A thousand thrown stones
At the bottom of the sea
And how can we erase
Our tortured history?
It’s all we are
And all we’ll ever be
I’d like to think we’d make it if we tried
I’d like to think that the pain inside would break you
Would break you down
I’d like to think that you meant what you said
When you said you’d love me to the end but
I’m wearing out
So there you go... song number one. I better get started on number two. See you back here in a couple weeks. :)
-Adam
I know these words were written out of the depth of your own experience, and It just turned out great! It kind of gives me another layer of perspective about such a complex issue that shaped your life and that affects the lives of so many others. Musically, my favorite part of the song is probably verse 2 (vocals) -- very nicely done. I'm so proud of you! Maybe one of these days we can try to polish up the bridge a bit. :) All in all - a wonderful & heartfelt piece of work.